Innerdialects

over and over, consumed, ejected, wrapt in a trap, shunned, broken, breaking, the spin of death,

shredded, cold, hot, drenched in the ice vice grip of hurt, betrayal of our own sense, all defence taken, shaken off every last foothold, look –

no feet, just a core convoluting, gone, arriving in new, formless shapelessness, the maddening stance of praying over and over,

not wanting it anymore, pleading deliverance from even hope, a prisoner of love, a prison in a prison of the mind, this cell, this death. Oh why, why, why, here I am, here, say a word –

nothing ? Just the endless procedure : aloneness, singularness, filled with emptiness

Filled with the Alone, taken with a Taking of sanity

suddenly – spun, no notice, as if a day were a thousand, as if this were normal, as if all this were to pass, oh ugh – as if this were something nice, something new in the morning, on bended shoulder, as if on a wing, sheh?! E’en a pair –

logic: Unalive, Relativity exited, a Cocoon crumbed, what’s this what’s this, I hear Someone saying – I am not forgotten, I am begotten of the most High, delivered from evil, even I..

..if I can hold on, this last excruciating transit, this next 60 seconds changing my mourning, sweeping my feet off old hang ups, taking my breath, inhaling me in His: a Skyful of Light, an expanse breaking color code, destroying old dimensions, hey what’s this, what’s this – a Voice in me,

tearing new vein, Blood crossing my slouching old premise, what’s this- I’ve no reference, this isn’t what the orher caterpillars magnified, this here Breathes into me, new design, a connectivity with the creative circle of love, and life, I’m a new creation – no one else did this,

Unfolden.

✨

(for my Friend E. and all of us)