What is man….

Last night as my eldest daughter Vi and I sat talking into the early hours of today, there was this sense of human fragility, of an earth spinning in space, of recent global panic & the puny state of everyday living as we know it.

With rose sapling in our balcony.
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This morning was woken with a strong sense of God’s love surrounding our home by the trees and little yellow and red bird couple flitting in and out balcony as Jeff sat close, his words and hands warm with Gods love. The landscape outside is sparkling washed after last nights rain and this mornings sun. Why is my heart all hushed, not in a bad way:

Oswald Chambers’ reads in his My Utmost For His Highest – ‘the despair of delight....’ what’s that. Takes a bit to process. (Whoops, it’s actually the Delight of despair😅)

Unsure what these are called,
but theyre least maintenance.
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I can’t imagine that we’re all sitting pat on a molten core of flames thousands of miles beneath us; can’t imagine that we have gravity- and the moon hasn’t. Am gawking at the fantasticity of bird wings, of Nature and Chaos. Of Viral disaster and how it overturns every thing. Of the power of Change, of Newness in our Present. Of our very Ignorance mid Intellect. Of how little we know of Everything; so

must I go on today as if we all can do without God? D’you care. What are these Posts for, what’m I here for, who are we, are we ours? Have we lived as if we are gods? Are we God’s? After Dust, where will our Spirits home?

Bamboo stalk ‘pot’ picked
from pile @ Haven Fellowship
Cubbon park.
(Acres of bamboo growth
caught fire so they
felled it all.
We got a piece)
Its just grown
an unrelated sprig.
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As Jeff held my face in his warm hands now I had a sense of his spirit reaching out to mine… an eternal warm spring. Not experienced that as strong as today. Have felt that over the years,

too: with the birth of our first daughter, and subsequent 2 adorable adoptions. There was that Presence & here today, mid heartache for our people, and the futility of watching thousands struggle through pandemic impact…

am sensing His Presence stronger than ever before deep in this valley of Shadows.

With Marija from Prague.
Kitsy our precious daughter at Cubbon that day with the rest of Haven Fellowship, but can you see the bent figure in white shirt in the background? This was on Feb16th 2020.
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15 thoughts on “What is man….”

  2. I too am more than usually aware of our fragility and vulnerability. Thank you for expressing this. There iis drought in south east England, and we are still reeling from the effects of Covid 19 and struggling to come to terms with its long term impact. Utter dependence on God is a good place to be. I too am a fan of ‘My Utmost for His Highest’.

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    1. You have drought is hard to believe.
      Wishing you stay safe and that things revert to normal. Yes that utter dependence, nothing like it. Hey so glad you too with Chambers, quite something he! I really am impressed with your website and the amazing work you do. Godbless!

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  4. When I look up and view the vastness of the night sky – I feel so small and insignificant. Then I remember that God loves me. Me out of all His creations. And it is like being wrapped in a warm blanket. It is the sense of being loved…

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  5. Your words are poetic, deep and profound. I need to ponder these thoughts; “…Nature and Chaos…Viral disaster and how it overturns every thing… power of Change, of Newness in our Present. Of our very Ignorance mid Intellect. Of how little we know of Everything;…” And in the midst of my ignorance mid intellect, I will seek God’s wisdom and try to make sense of at least a little bit of the craziness around us. Lord, help us!

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    1. Janbeek, thankyou for your words here, “And in the midst of my ignorance mid intellect, I will seek God’s wisdom and try to make sense of at least a little bit of the craziness around us. Lord, help us!”
      My thoughts exactly.
      It’s all kinds of crazy going on. God only can ..help us!💞

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        1. So need to turn up volume on prayer. So need that. I love your heart and the way you open it up to the world’s need in an hour like never before.
          Thankyou for being here and spreading His light

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